I broke up with a boy years ago. I had built my whole world around him so the thought of us no longer being together was like that feeling of dying. My heart broke. I felt it so deep. I remember crying on the floor and and thinking about everything I wasnt for him to not chose me. Looking back now I still remember that moment and how I didnt know what to do. Everything was in slow motion.... I wanted to end my life. He was everything to me. It hurt knowing I wasnt to him. I wanted to hurt myself, starve myself and I became obsessed with getting skinny for some reason. I was hoping maybe he would change his mind. Maybe he would choose me. I was so consumed by this relationship I hadn't stopped to think about me. In a moment of despair I hit rock bottom thinking of ways I could take my life. I was so desperate, I fell to my knees as I called to God and asked him if he was real to show himself to me. I didnt want to be here anymore so I just called to him because... why not. My mum must have been praying because in that moment I felt his presence wrap around me like a warm blanket. It was love in an incredible way I was convinced and slightly freaked out that God must've been real. I told him I would live with him and for him from that moment. I chose life over death. I chose me over a boy that I thought was my everything. I chose a future of uncertainty over a life ended in grief. 20 years later I'm still here on this earth, fully alive yet imperfect but hopeful for all who have and will experience something similar. I really hope my story encourages you today. It isnt over yet so I will use my voice to speak life and lift others up like many have done for me over the years. .
Much Love always,
ARee x .#chooselife #lifeoverdeath #suicide #youmatter #hope #joy #peace #newzealand #auckland #speakup #fightforlife #calltogod #jesussaves